i think when we talk about some stuff with music
we often fail to capture intangibles well and usually handwave away the hard to explain
or just the harder to capture elements of what moves us in the medium
it's very hard to translate the sensation of music to words and there's a lot of writing about music and i think it pushes the medium in a sort of push/pull feedback loop where we start to focus on the concrete details we can capture in words, spoken or written
and when i say texture i don't mean acoustically
i mean the way nebraska bruce springsteen was recorded on a 4 track in a motel
the way bob dylan only had an acoustic guitar and his voice
teen suicide's lo-fi recording setups early on
these are all aesthetic choices not entirely made with aesthetic considerations or even consciously sometimes. These are all driven by the prevailing conditions of the artist's life.
and when people talk about posers
i think this is what they mean
if you believe what you say
there are certain things you can't do
and like i think the yuppie archetype is a creative dead end
that's annoying discourse stuff though i don't care
but yeah the material conditions and the overall shape of your life
are such large factors on your music
and I think being a writer as well as a musician has cultivated this feeling in me
because most writers know that if you want to write interesting things you have to lead an interesting life, you write what you know
the same goes for music probably
but don't beat yourself up and think you're not interesting here because i can feel that impulse in myself there's a lot of ways to be interesting etc
and it's not just how you live
it starts with how you think
the sorts of ideological frameworks you put your feelings in
and i think there are some frameworks
fascism, bigotry, etc
that are just also creative dead ends
speaking of yuppies.....
lol fuck my life
but yeah like i don't want to litigate what a good texture is
i'll know it when i see it
