texture

 i think when we talk about some stuff with music

we often fail to capture intangibles well and usually handwave away the hard to explain

or just the harder to capture elements of what moves us in the medium

it's very hard to translate the sensation of music to words and there's a lot of writing about music and i think it pushes the medium in a sort of push/pull feedback loop where we start to focus on the concrete details we can capture in words, spoken or written

 and when i say texture i don't mean acoustically

i mean the way nebraska bruce springsteen was recorded on a 4 track in a motel

 the way bob dylan only had an acoustic guitar and his voice

teen suicide's lo-fi recording setups early on

 these are all aesthetic choices not entirely made with aesthetic considerations or even consciously sometimes. These are all driven by the prevailing conditions of the artist's life.

and when people talk about posers

i think this is what they mean

if you believe what you say

there are certain things you can't do

and like i think the yuppie archetype is a creative dead end

that's annoying discourse stuff though i don't care

 but yeah the material conditions and the overall shape of your life

are such large factors on your music

and I think being a writer as well as a musician has cultivated this feeling in me

because most writers know that if you want to write interesting things you have to lead an interesting life, you write what you know

the same goes for music probably

but don't beat yourself up and think you're not interesting here because i can feel that impulse in myself there's a lot of ways to be interesting etc

 and it's not just how you live

it starts with how you think

the sorts of ideological frameworks you put your feelings in

and i think there are some frameworks

fascism, bigotry, etc

that are just also creative dead ends

speaking of yuppies.....

lol fuck my life

but yeah like i don't want to litigate what a good texture is

i'll know it when i see it